Hi, my name is Meg and today is my 40th birthday.
Today, I am reflecting on the last 40 years of me. I don’t expect this post to go viral or even be read, its more for posterity. Read on if you are interested.
At 40, I am a seasoned Mom of 2.
One with Autism, and both are extremely intelligent. I love them more than anything in this world. Sure, it’s hard. Sure, I do have some challenges that moms of NT children don’t, but I wouldn’t trade my parenting journey. They have taught me so much about myself and how to care for others.
At 40, I am a wife of 16 years (!)
…to a wonderful man, who loves me for me and makes me feel beautiful and appreciated everyday.
At 40, I have diagnosed depression and anxiety.
I have struggled with it my whole life, but at this moment I feel like I am in control of it. I know when I am going to have a bad day or week – and I adjust accordingly. I am on meds, and I feel like after 4 years of being on them I feel better each year. I also have a husband and family that understands this about me, and can tell me when I don’t notice my behavior has changed – I feel very lucky that I don’t have to feel ashamed about this part of me anymore. It’s not normal, but so am I.
At 40, I am still an artist.
I still love to make things, and expressing myself artistically. I went to school and have a degree in graphic design. I freelance as a web designer and developer. Design and Coding, as well as doing things like resin art, painting, sculpting and drawing are my jam.
At 40, I am an introvert, but…
Still kind of an attention whore and that is why I restarted this blog. I also needed a place to write and connect during this pandemic, and I love the friends I have made through the blogging community when I was a ‘mommy blogger’ for 10 years.
At 40, I feel like I know who I am now more than ever!
I am very excited for this decade! It’s been an interesting ride so far (and I will write about it here!) and I am looking forward to what the rest of my life will bring. I feel lucky to still be around for it.