So, was anyone else blind sided by it being March on Monday?
Because, I wasn’t ready and it hit me, hard this week.
I keep thinking about our last family outing on March 2nd 2020. We went rollerskating with my son’s special needs group and it was so freakin fun. I mean, look at those faces!
It was so freakin’ fun, in fact, that the first thing we bought after stay at home orders were our own roller skates! We rolled around to pop music and giggled, all in our unfinished basement. Those roller skates brought my kids some newness and entertainment to an awful situation. It distracted from the trauma, YES trauma, that the world they were told was safe and to try new things in, was, in fact, very dangerous.
On March 13th, 2020 – which was a Friday! – we were given the stay at home orders and it felt like the world was about to go nuts (and it sure did.) – but in more of a zombie movie kind of way. I remember locking the doors, and really feeling like people were just going to call it a free for all and try to take our house – all while roller skating in the basement. I felt helpless. My mind went to dark places and started preparing for some crazy things.
Yeah, my response to trauma is pretty messed up.
Luckily, its masks (my husband is the only one who runs errands), homeschooling and ordering groceries for us. My husband has been able to work remotely for the past year so that has been helpful in keeping us all healthy…
Yet, the fact that this all seems routine now is crazy to me.
Who knew I would be writing this almost a year later? I thought for sure something would happen sooner. Then again, I kind of didn’t.
Now we are patiently waiting for our turn to be inoculated – and skeptical about this being the solution because we all know now that shit really can happen! I’m trying to stay positive though. Give me that microchip. (Just kidding I don’t believe in that!)
So those were my thoughts this week. How much has changed. Our family, Me, my kids…
Next post I will be focusing on the positive that has come out of this past year – because, surprisingly, there have been a lot!